What to write about when you think you have nothing to write about?
Once you start writing, you find you have
much to write about.
From ten days ago: Rain continues and the bean harvest was stellar. Time time time defeats me.
No time to make favorite recipes or new recipes or query that finished manuscript or pull weeds from my flowers, lots of weeds in the garden to pull and pile and stack and burn. No,
we don’t burn them; we throw them to the chickens. I discovered the chickens
like Swiss Chard. As I was pulling off the tattered bottom leaves, they were clucking
behind me in their pasture, and I threw the leaves over the fence on a whim. They
converged on the leavings like buzzards on carrion, scrapped and fought over
the juicy tidbits and colorful stems. Then there are the pigs. Pigs woof down
whatever the garden offers them, overgrown summer squash is a favorite. They
tidy things up. They even eat the hardneck garlic stems.
You've heard the story about the missing hunters and the pigs? It's easy to get rid of a body when you have pigs.
Rain?
What rain? Here we are ten days
later and watering the lettuce again. July brought record heat and August has brought record cool nights. I’m
sure the basil is less than pleased. The tomato worms are voracious this year. They have horns and eyes and they're green all the way through. Hubby
killed a 4-incher yesterday. Left alone, they'll devour an entire plant. I don’t like them. I don’t like getting green guts
on my shoes or toes should I make the mistake of trying to step on one in my
flip flops. Duh.
Today I will take a jar into the tomato patch and collect the tomato worms
and save them for the chickens. They like them. I shall not stomp on them,
splattering green goo across the garden. I shall not.
I can tell fall approaches, not so much by the early darkening as in the
foggy mornings and the cricket noises. They greet me at the entrance to the
greenhouse and I hear them in the night. Seems like only yesterday the
June bugs were banging their heads against the screen in the window beside my
table on which my laptop rests. Only yesterday was it light at 9:30 in the evening
and the grass was browning in the heat. Only yesterday was I swimming laps in
the pond with arms and legs muscled and brown, reaching for the shore and the world
beyond the top of the hill that abuts the water. Reaching and reaching with
arms that didn’t tire, with no concern for the outside world and politics and
the environment and whether I would be published or happy or strong. The
burden of adulthood is the knowledge we acquire. Is it any wonder our parents walk with a stoop?